English essay

Here's a super cheesy essay I wrote for a english exercise, enjoy!! :D

Finally! All those times where I doubted my feelings, wondering if my intentions were right, none of that mattered anymore. My hands were trembling and my heart racing as we were exchanging our vows, knowing that I’m making a lifelong promise. As we kissed, I felt completed because she was the missing piece that needed to complete my empty heart. It was the beginning of a new chapter in life, and knowing I’ll be together with her till death do us part, is all I ever wanted in life. Finally, my life is completed and made whole.

Still felt like it's not perfect, usual me haha :P

Realisation

you know what I just realise?

No matter how close you are to someone, there are times where you'll feel abandoned, alone and hurt by the people you love. I realise that no matter how close I am to my friends, or how many friends I have, friends WILL fail you in some way or another eventually. I've never felt so hurt by the people I love. And one thing I'll realise over the days and hope to keep in my heart forever, God will NEVER fail me (:

Recap

wow. My blog has become ANCIENT. Haven't visited this site for like 2 years?? Well it feels good to express myself in some way or another.

So what have I been up to? Well life is really a mess right now. My spiritual walk with God has hit rock bottom and I really don't know if i can pick myself up to continue the race. Parents are restraining me and are giving me tons of homework since this year is an important year.

Friends? Well lets say I never really felt so close to this bunch of people - Prefects. They have really been just awesome in my life. We are such a strong clique, but a good one. Students and teachers most probably hate us, therefore we only have each other to lean on. Did I mentioned that the board ALWAYS comes to my house to play WII? Its really an awesome way to bond with each other, therefore I don't really complain. We've been doing lots of surprise parties, starting with Kar Yan, then Emily and Mun Han. Yes I started the trend :D Most probably gonna have another party for our beloved Soong Mei Shia :D

I'm enjoying my final year in high school. I enjoy my class, 5 Usaha. I have friends like Keith, Leonard, Koon Meng, Ruthe, Vishnu and Ben who really can just make my day. They just brighten up my day with hilarious jokes and stupid things :)

CF has been great. It has grown amazingly and it still is. Pn Chong recently took over because Pn. Lim retired. I hold the Worship Coordinator post, which is really something I enjoy ( besides preparing the roster :P ) I find with Pn Chong around, we're much more organized and efficient. She pushes us to do something different and better each time, which I think is a really good thing for our CF. Our Easter Rally is just around the corner, and I believe its going to be a spirit-filled event. Literally. Can't wait for it.

Subang rally audition is this Sunday. I really don't know if I should go because like I said, I'm spiritually really, really down. But hack I'll go for it anyway. What happens happens. I do believe everything does happen for a reason, and I put my trust completely to God for the outcome this Sunday.

I guess there's really nothing much to say. To recap the past two years of my life in this one tiny little post is just an impossible job. Anyways I'm gonna do my best to update :)

oh and did I mention? I just got twitter :)

Teacher's Day =)

so Teacher's Day has come and go . The planning , stress , sweat and tears we prefects went through finally paid off . It was a memorable Teacher's Day . From the flying red carpet , to Fadzli's piano playing , to the banner dropping down , to the performance , to the Avatar movie and students trying to run out of school . Yeah , it was definitely a memorable one especially when we form 4s were the planners (:

Here we go!!


as the teachers were walking in . Mr Sim's entrance was the funniest . He came in last but had the most attention and cheer haha!

here's our piano player for the whole event - Fadzli (:

while Pn Kasma and co were making their speech on behalf of the Menteri Pelajaran - which is guaranteed the secretary's work , we were outside the hall getting ready the presents . Well , sort of . We had some fun too as we always do xD


how sam arranged it

and how I arrange it ( who's one is better ? )

the flowers!!

kar yan and I playing with them xD

lol....??

note the finger at the bottom left corner . Shows that MEI SHIA is not meant to be a photographer xD

mei shia is gonna kill me~~ xD

Capetown - Pravin , Eugene , Jon and Azfar , performed a total of 5 songs .

the MCs - Hazeem and Ayuni

mr Yazid

Fadzli : I'm bored =/

this are the form 2 prefects ( from left , Wei Jie , Nazrul , Ru Jin and Ben Seek ) . They performed My Girl by The Temptations . It was hilarious and cute at the same time . HAHAHA!!

SIM Li Ping sedang ____ mr SIM (:

Arul and Yazid

this guy was hilarious . He was....hmm i think the best word would be reciting xP

the whole event ended at 12:30 . The original plan was to keep the students upstairs and we duty at the stairs . Then Pn Sasni came and said they were watching


so at 1 , when the students went back , we stationed ourselves at the stairs . Some people wanted to go home and gave all the funniest , unreasonable and ridiculous excuses I ever heard . The top 2 are

• got arts class - teachers were all having lunch
• period cramp - a guy said this HAHAHA

overall , it was a memorable Teacher's Day - especially the banner dropping HAHAHA!! That tops it all . Of course not forgetting how much time I spent together with my prefect friends . I enjoyed today =)

Gee Gee Geeeeeeee!!

Note to self :
Ivan , you've got to stop watching this video or you'll turn up like kar yan and liyana =)

Everything - Lifehouse

This skit really hits you hard . Enjoy



Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

I Want To

today means alot of things . It's the beginning of a new year and also the beginning of a new decade . This is probably the time where people make their new year's resolution . Saying this makes me to look back at the resolution I made back in January 2009 . In it , I said I would

• not curse
• be more patient
• do my quiet times more often
  
• able to learn more musical instruments - violin!!
• serve in 365 in at least ONE deparment
• attend church regularly including friday prayer meetings
  
• NEVER insult my friends or anyone else
• do my homework :P
• be more active in sports
• share the Good News to at least 5 people
• play less computer games
• not to be greedy

and I can tell u the results of those

• not curse ( fail )
  
• be more patient ( quite successful )
  
• do my quiet times more often ( definite fail )
  
• able to learn more musical instruments - violin!! ( guaranteed fail )
  
• serve in 365 in at least ONE deparment ( fail )
  
• attend church regularly including friday prayer meetings ( fail )
• NEVER insult my friends or anyone else ( not quite )
  
• do my homework :P ( don't need to say also know fail adi )
  
• be more active in sports ( fail )
  
• share the Good News to at least 5 people ( pls lah , not even 1 fella )
  
• play less computer games ( u know the answer )
  
• not to be greedy( pass )

so that's like , 4 out of 12 pass . 25% . Doing this really makes me laugh . But this year I would only make 1 resolution of which I really hope I could fulfill . This year has definitely been a roller coaster year . With sadly to say more downs than ups . But after 11 months of what I could say as my backsliding period , I found the joy and fullness I've always been hoping and seeking for . In December , 12.12.09 , was what I can say a turning point in my life . It was the day I receive the gift of the holy spirit . Ever since then , I've been feeling so joyful wherever I am .

this year I could say I was anti social . I tried to do things to get attention . I tried to do things so that people would care for me . In school , I'm always abandon by most friends , only 1 or 2 standing strong beside me , caring and comforting me . In church , I always expected to be cared and to be loved but somehow my instincts proved me wrong . I felt the same as I did in school . Emptiness , loneliness sorrow following me everywhere .

after awhile I got fed up and stopped going to church . Then SOS came along . In SOS , I did felt God's presence but only got a day . It was when Paul came to me and said that God knows what I'm feeling and he'll care for me because He loves me . Even though I felt happy and everything that God still loves me and that He's watching over me , I didn't do my quiet time and read the Bible . So after 1 month , I stopped going to church already .

and so we jump to December . Camp NEW ( that was the theme ) . It was the saturday before camp . Pastor Lin Perry was sharing about....honestly , I forgot HAHAHA . I wasn't listening so yeah . But it was at the end of his sermon where it really changed my life . He asked for anyone who has yet to receive the gift of the tongues and wants to , to step forward and touch his hand . Something made me bold to step in front . This is how it went . He asked us to take 3 long breaths . After the 1st long breath , he asked us to praise God in english . So we did that . After the 2nd long breath , he asked us to continue praising Him in english . After the 3rd and final breath , the breath that completely changed my life upside down , he asked us to praise God in a language we did not understand and just open our mouth and talk . I felt so unusually happy , complete , whole ( wtv u wanna call it ) when I did open my mouth and talk . Without realizing , I had been speaking in tougues!!

then in camp , pastor Lin Perry was talking about prophecy . In the first session Jeremy Tan spoke something which really helped me even more . He said that I've been very anti social throughout the year and he said that God is there and that he still cares for me . That very night , I started doing my quiet time , and thanking God for everything he has done for me . At the same time , I suddenly had this passion to pray . I felt like praying whenever I had the chance . So for the 1st time in 3 camps , I went for the morning prayer at 6 .

on the 2nd day of camp , I spoke a prophecy for Kar Kien . Not to say I'm proud of it or anything , but it did show that God was working through me and that actually help with my doubt about God . You see , in the past few camps , such as Bible Blast , SOS and such , I've always feel excited about doing things for God . But at the same time I always doubt that God wasn't with me . This time it was completely different however . This time God showed me that He was with me and that I could trust Him this time .

after camp , I constantly prayed and read the Bible which is something I don't normally do after camps , no matter how great and awesome that camp was . I am happy and proud that this is happening . I myself can see that God is slowly but surely changing my heart into the heart He wants in me . And another thing , it so happends that this year's camp's theme was NEW . So maybe God is really making a NEW Ivan .

so in 2010 , the only ONE resolution I'm making , is that I'll draw close to God . I want this year to be a turning point in my life . I want this year to be a year of crossroads and that whatever decisions I make will draw me closer to God .

365 Oscar Awards

i think this picture is quite awesome and creative . Haha what do u think?? =)

Christmas!! Is Here Again

1st of all...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

and I hope all of you guys had a splendid one !!

this year's Christmas is a ratter odd and funny one for some reason I can't explain =D

started off with waking up at 7:28 . Or maybe I should rewind a few hours back . At 1:30 I called Emily and we spoke on the phone like for 1 hour and 20 minutes until something which we didn't know what ended our call . So in that long period we talked about VERY random things like what we did yesterday , TRYING to explain our houses ( which was a total failure ) , about our childhood , and bla bla bla =)

so we picked up Winnie at 7.45 and which was the time practice started . Reached there at 8 and I saw them lining up already . So I ran to my position and started immediately . The practice was just plain BAD because everyone was still sleepy and so . I had a flu so I couldn't speak loudly nor clearly . So after a bad practice , we practice again off stage and this time it was WORST because , the worship band was practicing and Su Ann wanted us to top their music . So everyone shouted and shouted and shouted =D

so after practice went to seat with Winnie and Jeannie ( rhymes? ) and talk . Danielle also finally had a chance to meet Winnie thinking she's my girlfriend . As a matter of fact , just to tell u guys , Winnie and I have successfully tricked 3 people this year that we're together xP . After all the chit chat I gave her the oh so expensive gift . Thankfully she liked it , well she better had!!

so worship started , sang a few carols then it was the children church's ( Kids Alive ) item . While they were singing , we got into our positions . The kids sang two songs , jingle bell rock and we wish u a marry christmas . Tried not to sing along so I could have some breath for my item but well , everything I try surely fails . It has been and will always be my destiny

I guess the item was ok . No mistakes , no nothing . Ok maybe in a way is was PERFECT . Really thank God for it =)

our item

went home , shopping and sleep =)

happy birthday Jesus!! Thank you for dying on the cross for me and everyone , so that we may have eternal life and have a relationship with God (:


have a blessed Christmas!!!

Melaka Trip

we took like 30 minutes going round and round to find this place :/