The Journey Starts NOW

I'm back from S.O.S !! Such a relief , can finally sleep on my nice comfy bed :D . I say , the 3 days 2 nights camp was a touching one for my youth group . I got touch during the camp , I finally felt the presence of God in my life .

before the camp , I was someone who was doubting the presence of God . Every time I pray , I kept thinking that I'm praying to a wall , not thinking that God was listening to me . I also felt that I was useless to God , that i could do NOTHING for He's glory . I felt that everyone hated me because some people would ignore me , not just in school , but sometimes in church itself

but now , that has ALL change . I knew God was with me , I remembered that God made me for a purpose , a mighty purpose for He's glory . All my prayers before this , were ALL answered during the camp . I also remembered that , I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me . Lastly , I was told that I AM a friend to many , and by chatting in msn , really did tell me that I am a friend to many .

last and the most important , I KNOW that God loves me and He'll never leave my side . In He's eyes , I'm a precious son , even though I've done SO many bad things in my life . I know sometimes when I commit sin , the Holy Spirit was always there to tell me NOT to do it , but I refuse to listen . If you did have a son who does that , you would feel very hurt , but yet you'll still love him . Same goes to me and God . I've been hurting everyone , God , my parents , my brothers , my teachers and friends . But now , it's all going to change .

I've been touch by God . If he had loved me so much even though I've committed millions of sin and would die for me to wash it all away , is truly the greatest love of all . Now , I want to serve Him , because truly He deserves it . He died to wash me clean and I am going to serve Him with all my heart , soul and strength because He deserves it . God deserves everything in our life , our computer , iPod , TV and everything else . I know that this are all just things that pleases our life , but does it pleases God?

during the second session of the camp , Ps. Guy spoke about "I heart people" . I wanted to see my friends , my parents and the world being saved . I wanted to have a heart to serve people so that many could see the how great our God is . I want to go to places where no one would dare go to share the Gospel . What do I have to lose ? I've got God with me and I can do all things through Him .

I'm going to change the world , and I know I can do it , no matter what . My journey starts now .

Am I useful?

science was easy yet complicated . Everyone agree with me here? It's so hot in my room now , even though the air cone has been switched on hours ago .

today's papers was arts and science . My whole class took like less then 15 minutes to finish the arts paper which contained 40 questions , so that we had time to study science . Pn Azimah was so funny , and cute according to Anis . Whenever she left the class , Chee , Eugene , Jia Wen , Aidan , Jash , Anis and a few more others will talk . So when teacher went to collect their papers , she said "don't talk during exam" to all of them with the same voice , same tune and same accent .

during paper 1 , God was great . I used the dartboard a few times ( hantam :D ) and it ALL turned out correct . People will say "AEIOU bangali ( or wtv ) love you , kiss ur darling bla bla bla but after today , it is scientifically proven by Ivan Goh that it is ineffective already . I used , "God is good , God is great . Please help me answer this question" and yes , it is very effective . *Please don't do this during exam , if you study , you won't have to be like me* =)

oh , I forgot to mentioned that the Subang Rally 09 flyers are out!! Get it from either Esther Lim ( 4 Usaha but 4 Bakti for now thanks to her broken leg lol ) or Samuel Wong , also 4 Usaha . Today , i managed to pass out a total of 9 flyers to Eugene , Tasha , Keith , Winnie , Shang Qin , Ben , Q-hung , Aidan and I forgot the last one haha .

the fact that I actually ran out of fliers , and that I managed to convince Shang Qinnnie and Q-Hung to come for the Subang Rally made me feel useful for God . For the past few weeks , I've been feeling down , physically , mentally and spiritually . Whenever I'm in church , I feel like I'm left out , like nobody wants to be with me . The thought of changing church HAS cross my mind many times before , but still what's the point? In children church , I'm a useless P.A member who doesn't even know when I'm on duty , in the "Special'' Children Ministry , I do nothing but sharpen pencils and I can't serve in youth cause I'm not regular in prayer meetings .

but ever since I signed up for the Subang Rally , I've been doing nothing but trying to get involved with it and of course 1 of them is giving out the fliers . I feel that I CAN save souls or maybe at least HELP . I do hope that this Rally can make a difference in my life , to help me PUSH through any hardships , difficulties or whatsoever challenges in life . So , come join me in a life changing experience one should not miss in the Subang Interschool Christian Fellowship Rally 09 . God bless all! =)

btw , is H1N1 = 1 part Hydrogen and 1 part Nitrogen??? xD

A New Start

First of all , wishing everyone a Happy New Year . Since it's a NEW year , i really want to make things right . Therefore i'm typing my posts from here on now this way in this style . Well i admit it IS very unusual typing my posts this way but i reckon i'll get use to it - eventually :P

so as everyone has , or should , have a new year's resolution . So here's mine i really DO hope i will fulfill all this

• no cursing
• be more patient
• do my quiet times more often
  
• able to learn more musical instruments - violin!!
• serve in 365 in at least ONE deparment
• attend church regularly including friday prayer meetings
  
• NEVER insult my friends or anyone else
• do my homework :P
• be more active in sports
• share the Good News to at least 5 people
• play less computer games
• not to be greedy

Ultimately , all this resolutions are to make me a better person . It's not that i need to it , but because i WANT to do it . There's also one thing i hope for which is a better , strong and constant relationship with God . I say my relationship with God in 2008 was a roller coaster ride . There were times i thanked Him for everything , sometimes i blame Him for everything . I took my time thinking about why i blame God for everything , and i just realize that no matter what , he wants nothing more then what's best for me and for all of us . I just can't understand why , why have i only thought of this now .

Looking back through some of my old posts , i feel like a stupid guy . I can't believe i needed a band like Planetshakers to make a great worship . Yes the loud noise and lights flashing everywhere does bring atmosphere of a great worship and that's why i did look forward to it . Although it's nice to have the loud noise and lights , a worship in my room by myself is even better because in church i tend to follow the "flow" , following what others are doing . So when i'm alone in the house , get my mp3 and sing till my neighbors complain :P

I still haven't decided if i want to take my results , as i am uncertain of what my parents would react to the results . I don't know why , but my parents expect me to be like my brothers . Some parents set the border line to a grade A - B , my parents set the line to 90 and above which is finding a needle in a haystack . It can be done but almost impossible as i really , REALLY can never concentrate for hours like my brothers . My parents just expect "greatness" from me and as you know or don't know , my results are always 65 - 90 so i tend to get scolding and lectures after EVERY exam . So i'm going to be studying at least an hour everyday weekday this year , cause i'm sick of being lectured , it's very irritating =.=

so once again , a blessed new year to all!!!!!
school starts in 4 days
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Youth Camp 08

so youth camp 08 is over
it was a blast , but i had 70% of the fun at camp cause i was sick throughout the whole camp
what a time to pass your sickness to me nicholas ng
but even so , it did not stop me from hearing what God wanted me to hear at camp
i'll be posting just the major points cause that's all i can remember :D
so here goes!!

this year's camp theme was "God is Able"
our camp speaker was Terry Appel , a aussie
well here's all the info you need :D

next , i really like the games group and dorm names , all named by ee huei our head of dorm and group department
so the dorms were

Girls

- Neverland
- Shangri-la
- Avalon 1 , 2 , 3

Guys

- Frisland
- Camelot
- Elsinore
- El Dorado
- Bresil
- Atlantis
- Stonehenge
- Chichen Itza

Games Groups

- Phantom
- Lighting
- Raptor
- Falcon
- Eagle
- Hornet
- Tomcat
- Skynight
- Cutless
- Crusader

the yellow colors are my dorm and group
danial chia was my dorm leader while ashley was my games leader
well since my dorm name was Stonehenge and danial was our leader , he expected us to act like barbarians cause well....we're the Stonehenge lol

the camp manual for this year's camp sure looks good , doesn't it??
what you think??
i think the people who designed it , sure did a great job
so goes with the name tag

i know my name tag says my games group is eagle , but i'm in falcon
su ann whom i ask to change my name tag 4 times , refuse to change it to me and gave me very lame and stupid excuses =.=
and when i toke the 3 pictures above , i tried to do the blurry affect
clearly i failed T.T

so the journey to the campsite took what it seemed forever
i couldn't sleep , cause next to me was 2 annoying paparazzi a.k.a elysia tan and nicole
who could not stop taking pictures of me sleeping
at arrival at the campsite , we were welcomed with pouring rain
then off to the main hall for the camp briefing
oh btw the campsite is below :D

Nube Training Centre :D

and the main hall , we removed the chairs
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then we played a game what my school cf calls "mafia"
where you have to hit someone with a role of paper
( very thick paper ) and before he hits you , say someone else name
for example "A" is the mafia
and "B" must say someone elses name when "A" is about to hit him :D

my dorm

veiw from my bed , isn't it nice??

*fast forwarding*

dinner - food sux
end of story

cafeteria

moving on to session 1
well God put a phrase which i just heard days ago which is
"live like you going to die tomorrow , plan like your going to live forever"
i can't get it out my mind , and i think this is how i should start living my life

during dorm moments i was starting to fall asleep
remember i was sick ok
so the moment dorm moments finished , went and brush teeth
wear my jacket , lie on my bed , sleep :D

-Day 2-

so i heard many people went to morning prayer , approximately half the camp according danial chia
i only woke up when quiet time started
well actually when i woke up they already started...lol

*fast forwarding*

variety night preparation
well everyone should know what variety night is
but for my school friends who probably won't , it's a night where all the games group team up to act out a sketch
my group paired up with cutless

it was hard to work the sketch , at a point i gave up on the group
cause everyone wasn't focusing on the sketch
so were the 2 leaders
well just to add up i was in a grumpy mood and my fever and gotten worst
but luckily it was free time so i had a nice rest
but to spoil it was games =.=

the games this year was fun , but cannot compare to last year
among all the games , running around the bucket 10 times was the funniest
although i didn't play cause of my fever
actually , all the games i hated , i gave the excuse i needed rest
ok i was joking there ok =.=

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after the games , everyone mostly went down to the beach
with 1 reason and only for ONE reason
= baptize people =
i didn't know who got baptized cause i wasn't there , thanks to my fever
every time i talk about my fever , the taught of strangling nicholas ng always crosses my mind
the guy who past me his fever

ok so it was banquet night after bath time
this year's theme was retro night
or is it "Blast from the Past"??? man am i confuse
so it's either one
well the theme is to basically dress up in your 60's/70's/80's costume
and of course the winner would be this guy

-sean lee jia ern-

who went as the King of Rock and Roll - Elvis Presley
nono this guy seriously is from our church
his this guy

- a picture that comes only every 100 years -

well let's not forget adrian the efro guy

and of course , the rest of the gang
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and my date was joey WONG
not joey GOH
a date which i did not take out to dinner...haha
but because i was sharing date , david teoh had the pleasure of taking her alone =.=
and here's something funny to add
when danial chia told me my date was joey wong , i was still in a dizzy mood
so i said this in my mind
"har??? i'm dating my brother??"
HAHHA

so variety night , never has cease to make me laugh my head off
or in this case , my throat out :D
personally , i find that my group should had won
well actually i didn't act
hehe
i was watching my team perform while i was seating with the crowd cause i was yet to recover

so the funny moments to remember

- pastor berry banana

this one was seriously funny
well since our camp speaker was terry appel , they made fun of his name
because appel is close to apple , so they changed his name to berry banana
that was done by benjamin , and his group tomcat and lighting

- british pounds vs australian dollars

earlier during session 2 , pastor terry appel made fun of our ringgit currency
so pastor richard ( who's a British man ) decided to get back at him
so , the scene

Ps. Richard
Eugene Khoo

What is this?!?!
Australian dollars larh
What?!?! *throws the money away* I expected BRITISH POUNDS

this was also done by tomcat and lighting
and you know , i think the reason they weren't in the top 3 and probably last , was they were making fun of pastor terry appel to much
and since he was one of the judges , he might had minus lots and lots of points
so never make fun of a judge :D

- McKarKientheFoo

look out people!!
if you happened to go to McDonald's , check out for their latest burger , McKarKientheFoo
named after out photographer , Foo Kar Kien a.k.a FKK
so every team , when they get the piece of paper on which they must act something related to the subject written on the paper , must also say out 3 key words for extra bonus
in this case , one of their keyword was Kar Kien i suppose

so they named the new burger for McDonald's McKarKientheFoo
kar kien , don't feel offended about it
think of it this way , how many people have their names on a McD burger???
:P

- Robocop's bicep cramp

well it's not actually that funny if you don't know about lawrence and his biceps story
well it's simple
he taught his biceps were his thighs ( unsure spelling )
so adrian was robocop and making fun of that

and this was actually from my group
so our sketch was base on this superhero competition
a.k.a superhero idol
so we tried to impersonate american idol as much as we could
such as having ryan teoh as Ryan Seacrest
and having the 3 judges

joel benjamin - randy jackson
su lynn - paula abdul
sean - simon cowell

and also with 2 chinese judges played by sean and erm...forgot...lol
so the judges would ask each superhero where they got their powers and what their powers were
so the superheros that audition were

1. superman
2. cicakman
3. robocop
4. darth vader ( his a villian not a superhero ryan!!! )
5. spiderman
6. batman

erm i think that's all =.=
the funniest among all would be adrian and meng yoe who played superman

- Superman's powers and where he got them

so what are his powers??
"i can fly with manual , and automatic" - meng yoe
he's talking about the car gears =.=
that seriously made me laugh like crazy till my throat was painfull for 30 minutes
lol

so where he got his powers??
obviously , he's red underwear which he forgot to bring
so he brought a paper-shaped underwear with the word "red" written on it
and the girls in the crowd were desperate for it
especially cae me HAHAHAHA

*fast forwarding*

-Day 3-

i'll go straight to the photo session :P
so instead of having the photo session on the last day , we did it on the 2nd last to avoid chaos and rushing
well , you know malaysians and their punctuality problems =.=
and i learned something cool about photography
you can take pictures with a remote
that's what kar kien did
so cool...

after the photo sessions was 2 hours and 15 minutes of free time
so everyone headed for the beach
1st of all , the beach had very , VERY limited space
and even so , the beach were pack with rocks

so i played touch rugby
which i find was pretty stupid..lol
it was like , play and stop repeatedly for like a 100 times
it was annoying
and what makes it more annoying is you can only pass behind and not in front

baptism again...
unbelievably , the baptism people manage to baptize danial chia
lol
watching them do that was so funny
they took like 7 seconds to baptize him
and baptizing irwing was funny
normally before you baptize people , you ask
"do you receive Christ and you personal Lord and Savior?"
and the person SHOULD say yes
and irwing said no which resulted in getting baptized quicker =.=

-Station Games-

erm there were altogether 10 stations
so i'll try to rmb the games

1st was AJ
the game was putting coins , eggs and marbles from 1 container to another with a chopstick
and the chinese people in my team should be ashame of yourself
including me =.=
cause among us all , the best person that used the chopsticks was benjamin , a African guy

the 2nd station we went was Dar Ray's
it was at a very grassy area , and he used it to his advantage
in 5 minutes , hit as many cans by rolling a tennis ball
he was difficult as the cans were covered by thick , long grass
i didn't roll the tennis , i was the catcher catching all the balls , running everywhere =.=

3rd was melissa's
erm , didn't know what it was
it was something about lifting up legs , i was resting at that time
ran too much at the previous station..haha

4th kar kien and danial's
of all things to throw at us , they threw chili sauce
and what happened ?? went inside BOTH my eyes
well the game is simple
put a water balloon on someone's head , shaved all the cream out till u see the color of the balloon

and i was the unlucky person holding balloon which meant i couldn't dodge any of the incoming chili sauce attacks
which i forgot to mention , either kar kien or danial poh would be throwing some water mixed with chili at the people constantly
or whatever was inside
it made my eyes burn like crazy =.=

5th was samuel's
it's passing 2 balls and a rugby around
which i find is very hard to explain it here so , sorry
anyways , i didn't play
so i watched the other groups at kar kien's station
natalie was so funny
she tend to run like 10m away when kar kien throws the water , not forgetting the constant screaming
lol

6th was jonathan's
i didn't play , guarded adrian from getting him his nipples attacked
i seriously don't know what's wrong with the youth
attacking each other's nipples
man this sounds really wrong...
the game was simple
8 people are blind folded , and 2 people have to direct them to put boxes around them
or whatever :P

7th was su ann's
it was stupid and childish yet fun
aren't all childish games fun??
well , it's something which i actually fail to do in my childhood days
it's shooting tin cans with a water gun
i love water guns
but , apparently , after shooting it twice , it spoils , malaysian product mah!!
and when i asked my parents to but another , the answer is "no"
and well , i spend the next 7 hours crying in my room
that was when i was 5 not 14

8th was ee huei's
lazy to explain
lol
there's a mine field , full with banana peals and erm....poop??
so the guy crossing the mine field is blind folded
and someone has to direct them across the mine field

9th was su lynn's
erm , tossing water balloons to another person with blankets??
i'm getting tired
sorry =.=

10th was cae me
which was like the easiest of all , but the seemed hardest for other groups
easy , get 1 person to read out something funny and the rest of the group members must not laugh
as simple as ABC
:D

i'm starting to get tired so i'll
*fast forward*
again

erm , getting REALLY tired so...skip to pack up time :D
actually i didn't pack during pack up time cause i actually packed my bag the night before
so i just slept awhile , cause i was predicting that the 2 paparazzi were gonna do their job in the bus again
annoying people =)

so , the bus 3 that was awaiting us was a different bus
the bus that journeyed to the nube facility was green
and brian seem obsessed with it =.=
so instead of green , it was yellow
but liked this bus because the driver was kind enough to let us a watch a movie
and the movie was Hancock
i've never watch it before so i was paying full attention to it
apparently after watching it for 15 minutes i slept

so this what happened in youth camp 08
i'm sure next year's would be better ( it better be ) :P
although i was sick throughout the camp , it was still fun
fun both in fellowship and experiencing God's presence
i really enjoyed this year's camp
( especially the water gun game :P )

before i forget , i wanna thank dar ray and danial for taking good care of me throughout the camp and also to my dorm members
who woke me up at 2 just to give me medicine
and yucky it was
and also , i learned 1 very important thing
NEVER go near nicholas when a important event is coming up :D

and also , i hope YOU would follow me to next year's camp
it'll be a life changing experience you'll never forget

Musician in the making

today went to church
children church or should i call it Kids Alive , was fun
worship was ok
but best of all was Pastor Richard , made me laughed till had a stomach ache =.=
he read through the bible passage like in just 1 minute
i've of speed writing and reading , but i've never heard speed talking before!!
and he showed us the FGT churches nationwide and worldwide through google earth , and it was fun seeing it
seeing the big globe moving about =.=
but the best of all was....
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HAHAHAHA!!!!
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aww man i getting back the stomach ache from laughing!!
samuel...a tip for you , never grow your hair long again
hahaz...what a laugh..
oh yea , i'm volunteering to help out in VBS in preparing craft materials , preparing name tags , games deparment , playing drums , helper in 5 , 6 and 7 years old class , photographer and decoration of hall
yes i know it's a long list =.=

when i came home , the 1st thing i saw...i mean person i saw was my little baby cousin walking to me
she's so cute~~ :P
well as usual after church i threw myself to my paradise - my bed :D
when i woke up my cousin was still here while my parents , aunt and uncle went out together
so i used the opportunity to play piano and drums

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i wasn't posing ok...
so happened my cousin had nothing else better to do so she snap some pictures of me
oh oh!! i can play the chorus of
"Right Here Waiting For You" by richard marx
it SUCH a peaceful song
i wish i could learn how to play the whole piece :P

style??? :P
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i finally gotten back my love for drumming :P
well i played drums for almost 2 hours...so u could tell how much fun i had and i can't wait 2 jam again with my brothers
and last of all...


joey's going to youth camp with me!!! ^_^

Nando's day!! spicy!!

today...transport 2 church was kar kien....he ask me b rdy by 8...i woke up at
8.30 after he called me...he asked me 2 come out immediately....
so jst toke chg , toke my phone n wallet n brush teeth...lol..
today i play drums 4 cc ( children church )....AT LAST!!!! SO LONG NVR PLAY EDI!!
the songs were

1. Jesus U r so good
2. Lift U up (new song)
3. How great is our God

so...all songs were funny.....cse the 1st song "Jesus U r so good" in the chorus there
r i tink....3 atks.....so all the atks i donno how 2 do...lol
i mean atks as in sudden crashes....i mean hitting the crash cymbols.....lol
den "Lift U up"....1st time i see the kids jumping....den also see AJ ( aunty jenny )
n aunty TM or ATM ( aunty tyan min...nt auto telling machine...lol ) jump
den 3rd song...was fun...cse i had the most fun time of my life...
jst making the worship loud so the kids will sing loud also...cse tht's the way i worship...
when it gets louder...i also sing louder....lol...jst the way i worship...nth wrong wit tht...xD
den went into my class room....the 'special' children class...
man...y cant i get a better class den tis?? i prefer the 5 n 6 years old...eventhough i noe tht
it requires lots n lots n lots of work....
bt during vbs i helped 5 n 6 years old...they all luv me....not being perasan ok....lol
ok ok....back 2 April 08...not December 07...lol

den during main service....
worship was QUITE dead....didn't feel the presence of God in the House....haiz...
den cerment was by a....a... i tink a american...I TINK!!
he's topic was prayer....it was SERIOUSLY DAM BORING!!!! tried 2 stay awake 2 listen
but i ended sleeping 4 awhile at the end of the cerment...lol
den transport back was bryan....

reach home...johnathan called me...ask me wether 1 go cc wit xian loong n eugene....
so i went at 1.30......those stupid monkeys say b there at 1.45....
ended up coming at 3....smart monkeys...lol
so we played COD4...by now u noe wht it means edi rite?? 4 idiots hu still donno it's
Call Of Duty 4....
so we played 2v2...AND IT WAS SERIOUSLY DAM FUNNY!!!! LAUGH LIKE MAD ONLY!!
so we decided to keep swaping teams....noob eugene always 1 2 b wit xian loong...
i mean he ALWAYS wants 2 b wit xian loong...
but suprisingly....even jonathan played better den eugene......eugene so noob
go use lvl 55 hack.....me n xian loong also wanted to bt den we r pros...dont use noob tactics...jk only la...i still noob...xD
so during my turn where i team wit xian loong....it was a sniper map where there was
two big buildings to snipe in....
so xian loong being the pro of sniper covered me while i rush 2 their building....
den everytime i see eugene or jonathan sniping at xian loong...
i go 2 them....i stared at them 4 awhile....den i ask them look at my screen which i'm actually
looking at him...so after staring at him 4 5 secs...i knifed him 2 death..
so i did tht multiple times...lol
den when they die...gt a replay camera tht shows u how u died....
so it's everytime i stare at them....den after 5 secs only i knife....so we were laughing abt tht like mad..lol

den 4 dinner went 2 nando at Subang Parade...SO SPICY!!!
i ordered extra spicy...the spiciest among all....lol
and it was VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY SPICY!!!!!
i ordered 1/4 chicken.....i drank
i tink 4 cups of coke....cse can refill ma....xD
den after eating my lips were burning like mad....so i ask 4 1 cup full of ice....
den after eating....all the ice i used up edi...lol
so went 2 mc'D which was opposite...ordered 1 veli nice ice cream 2 cool my lips...
den it didn't work...so went home....put ice pack on my lips....lol
still not effective....so i put my whole face into a bowl full of ice.....NOW THT WAS EFFECTIVE!!!
lol....

today got no verse....cse i updated too late so cant get the verse.....xD

SCREW BLOGGER!! CANNOT UPLOAD PICS!!! after cursing sure can upload 1...lol

Nothing much 2

ok ok...wht to start wit??? hm ok....i woke up at 12.30...lol
had a nice breakfast n shower....did some science work....den mummy bought me mcD...yay!!!
long time no eat...as usual it was 'chicken mcdeluxe'....nice burger...xD
den watch home alone....watch tht a billion times edi...bt i still dont get bored abt it...lol
den kk ( kar kien) told me 2 wait at 3...ended up he came at 3.20...oh well....
tis is a true malaysian...lol
so went church....today jacob was leading....quite dissapointing ...giv it a 3/10
today was cell....had 2 sit nxt 2 rhys....tht little monkey
keep disturbing me....
den we throw paper aeroplanes around till meng hong scoulded us....lol
the topic today was....err...i 4got edi...lol
but something 2 do wit IQ , SQ , LQ , FQ n EQ...
those stand for

1. IQ - intelligence quotient
2. SQ - spiritual quotient
3. LQ - leadership quotient
4. FQ - financial quotient
5. EQ - emotional quotient

if u ask me wht is quotient...i hav NO idea wht tht stands for....lol
so after tht....played bball.....at church...how cool is tht??
a church which owns a bball court....i'm proud 2 b a FGTian.....LOL
so kk fetched me back....along in the car were danial , arthur , david n paul.....i got squash at
the back of the car....all so big size....i only tiny boy....wht 2 do....xD
so got home at 7.....den toke a long nice hot shower...
cse it was raining heavily n it was SOOOOO cold....so toke a 15-20 minutes bath....xD
den after tht...watched 13 minutes of arsenal's match n went
off 2 dinner.....dinner was fishball....nothing special abt it...jst got nothing else 2 type abt...lol
so when got home....do some science again....den at 11...WATCH GHOST RIDER!!!!
since it was my 1st time watching it...i enjoyed it very much....
but i didn't feel right watching it cse it's abit against the christian.....
but it was all too bad...he only harmed the guilty n not the innocent.....
n i also learned a lesson frm it...no matter how much i 1 something....i'll nvr trade my soul wit the devil no matter how much i 1 it.....
cse God can giv me anything i 1....if i listen 2 him n b a good child...

so...nothing else happened...BUT TOMOLO PLAYING DRUMS!!! FINALLY!!!!
n it's already 2.30....seriously need 2 sleep...chowz!!

“But Christ has indeed been raised from the dead, the firstfruits of those who have fallen asleep. For since death came through a man, the resurrection of the dead comes also through a man. For as in Adam all die, so in Christ all will be made alive.”- 1 Corinthians 15:20-22

2nd Planetshakers Concert

guess wht??? i went 2 a 2nd Planetshakers concert!!! twice in 2 days!!!! woot!!..lol
so...started off wit some calls....called greatgrandmother( u shud noe hu she is by now..xD )
like mad...today spend rm5 credit....mummy scolded me......hehe
den when we talking tht time....she really deaf like wht.....i shout on the phone no use....
den i talk on the phone the way u talk wit a walkie-talkie....shouting at the mike there.....still she cannot hear...lol

den at 3.45....walk 2 my jie's hse at ss15...so nearby only....but she keep saying "so far la...don't need 2 come la...i come fetch u.." so i don't care lor...jst cross the road..den climb up the mountain...lol
not really a mountain la...just a really high slope tht i dislike climbing...but i'm use
2 it lor....cse everytime go 2 ftz at asia cafe..i always climb up the slope....but veli paiseh 2 climb up 1...some more got mud there....i accidently step into a pool of mud....yuck!!

den we reach there at 4.10....oh...btw the venue is at sunway college...
oh ya i 4got 2 tell u....when i was looking where 2 venue of the Planetshakers concert was...they said it was at City Church KL @ MPH , Sunway College...
at first...i taught they said it was at the MPH book store at the sunway college there la...
den when i reach there.... they said MPH stands for Multi Purpose Hall....LOL
so...again...i went wit my jie lor....but greatgrandmother n her sister also went...but we went in different transport lor....so after we met at the entrance.....we went to look
4 the place...the so called Multi Purpose Hall......lol.....
so we went there...we were lining up la...i didnt even noe tht were ppl lining up there....xD

eventhough we were like 1 of the 1st ppl to go in....we were sitting in the middle....so sad....
den we were inside the hall at around 4.15 like tht....so waiting 4 the concert 2 start...
me , greatgrandmother n my jie jie play like wht only....
greatgrandmother was trying 2 take a pic of jie jie n me together.....but she managed
2 take 1 pic la....donno how on earth also she did it..lol
den while playing tht time...suddenly por por ( lynn ) come....scared me 2 death lor.....i also donno how many times greatgrandmother hugged por por...lol....weird family huh??
den instead of greatgrandmother trying take pic of jie jie n me....my jie jie n greatgrandmother trying 2 take a pic of me n por por together...lol....so por por n i said tht
my jie jie n my greatgrandmother r paparazzi....trying take pic of stars like me!!...lol...jk jk

ok ok...enough adi k...lets get back 2 the main topic shall we?? so b4 the concert started...2 pastors of the City Church KL were praying....n their prayers were so meaningful....
so after tht....
PLANETSHAKERS TIME YO!!!!
the moment they come out...i faster run 2 the front...but my jie jie n greatgrandmother lar....go walk there....i 1 2 run there also cannot..zzzz
so i ended up in front...n guess in front of wht??? THE SUPER LOUD SPEAKER!!!!
n the music was so loud....tht everytime when Andy ( the drummer ) hits the bass....sure got vibration in my ears....pain pain pain pain.....lol...
but tis time....when i was praising...I WAS HYPER!!! jump jump jump....can get thinner tis way...lol....sweat sweat sweat like mad to clean the toxin frm my body..lol...cse of all the body heat...den...i so thirsty...no water...T.T
den during worship....i had such a wonderful time worshiping the Lord....n i was shouting out every single word of the song.....n because all their song lyrics hav a part where
u just keep repeating the same thing all over n over n over again... like
'Rain down on me'
'Rain down on me'
n i had such a wonderful time....meaning all those words tht i sang....n lifting up my hands for more than 30 mins....i could feel the pain in my hands...but i just wanted 2 surrender
2 Jesus...n nothing could stop me....even the pain....4 the pain in my arm is jst nothing compare 2 the pain tht Jesus suffered on the cross...whenever i keep remembering abt the pain in my arm...i jst remind myself....tht the pain tht Jesus felt on the cross...was much much more worst than this....
i cried during all the worship songs...
tinking of wht God has done in my life......
tinking y did i had been so far frm God.....
tinking y i haven't been doing his work
tinking y i don't follow his commandments....

tinking of all tht....really make me cried.....cse God has done so many miracles in my life......
n tis is the way i repay him.....doing all those terrible sins....n wondering y does God still wants 2 bless me....eventhough i hav been doing all the wrong things....n i noe y...cse he still loves me...for the way i am...frm the inside out.....

ok ok....reading all those things above....it really makes me wanna cry again.....now also my keyboard is wet....soak wit all of my tears....xD
so after tht....it was time 4 the cerment.....the preacher was Ps.Mark....he was a QUITE funny guy...he always tells stories tht relate 2 the word tht he is trying to reach out 2 us all....so
tht it wouldn't b tht boring...lol
den when we collecting the tights n offering.....in my wallet was rm50 note n a rm1 note....
so the 1st offering i gave the rm1 note...so left the rm50 note.....
den there was a 2nd offering....tis time the offering is 2 bless the Planetshakers band...
n i wanted 2 bless them....but rm50 man!!! after tht i pokai edi lor...yesteday already
i bought the t-shirt....so didn't give....but i regreted not giving the rm50 2 them....T.T

so after tht....
EVERYBODY JUMP AROUND IN THE HOUSE OF GOD!!!!
woohoo!!! sweat sweat sweat like mad cow...hahax
den concert finish.....awwww....hav 2 wait another year till they come back 2 perform.....T.T
den after tht....went 2 jenny's hse...her little sis birthday....so cute la the way Joey sing....
haha...a cute 7 year old girl's voice...haha....i can tell she can sing better den me ... :D
den...SHE MAKE ME SO JEALOUS!!!! SHE GOT AUTOGRAPHS FRM THE PLANETSHAKERS PPL!!! SOMEMORE SHE TOKE PICTURES WIT THEM!!! ARG!!!
some more....she told me the band ask her wht instrument she plays.......so when she said the keyboard....the keyboardist go n hug her....i tink she said like the
band had a deal tht if the person hu came in plays the instrument they play....they must hug them...lol....so he was hugging her when they toke the pic....lol

woohoo!! the post is SOOO long....now is already 3 a.m...so sleepy!!!!
now....my legs r pain n cramp , my hands r SO pain , i hav lost my voice , got a bad cold , i'm partially DEAF....but i hav 2 say....it was all worth it...to praise an almighty God like Jesus....yea...it is....

Pictures during the concert

the crowd

greatgrandmother lee chen...lol

cool effect huh??

electirc guitarist guy n bass guitarist guy!! 4got their names
SRY!!! xD

the worship leader....sort of....cse he only lead in the 1st
few songs..

tq PlanetShakers 4 Changing Me

man....tis is a day i will nvr want 2 4get...y?? PLANET SHAKERS CONCERT!!!!!WOOHOOO
i last minute can go...cse at 1st my mum dont let me go cse i nvr do maths work....
in ur dreams la i nvr do!!! nvr see all the papers wit equations i throw into the bin...zzzzz
den last minute say i can go....tht time adi 6.30...lol
den i call my jie come along lor...she say can....wanted 2 call greatgrandmother a.k.a lee chen
2 come also...so i called edric 2 ask 4 her number la....bt the monkey nvr pick up...zzzz
so at the end only me n my jie jie go lor....

left at 7....we reached there around 7.30....the venue was at FGA in old klang road.....
so when we got there....i saw a few of my church members there....
den they all ask me y i only come wit my jie.....
i said "accompany gf mar..."LOL....i was only kidding tht time k?? she not my gf...lol
den when samuel introduce himself 2 my jie den she also introduce herself....
den when samuel heard the name rite...he heard "hui qie"...LOL
when we were queing up....eventhough we were there at 7.30....we reached the main hall
at 8.05....we were lucky cse when we reached the main hall....they blocked the entrance
2 the 2nd floor.....so we had 2 go in the 1st floor la....
den when we were inside....they close the door cse gt too many ppl inside edi....
if weren't inside...we had 2 go 2 another hall where they r showing
the concert on a screen...so it wasn't live la....
so i really praise God 4 giving me a place in the main hall...if not i wouldn't hav been watching it
live....so thank you Lord 4 tht!!!!
so....as usual...everybody JUMP!!!!! WOOHOOO!!!! CRAZY MAN!!! NVR HAD A FUN TIME JUMPING IN SUCH A LONG TIME!!!!
the song i remember were...

1. Free
2. Pick it up
3. Name above every name
4. In the name of Jesus...i tink

but i was personally veli dissapointed...looking at all the people around me....they all nvr jump
at all...except 4 some girls in front of me....the people hu were fired up were all
in front....so i was "walau wei....all the people here not fired up also....i want 2 go in front la..."
n also....because we were all the way behind....so it was really dark compared 2 the
front cse the celling in front is higher....so i couldn't take any pics....T.T

tht's all....after tht there was a cerment la....Jamie something was the speaker...lol
he was quite a funny guy....but i luv his cerment....was veli touching...xD
den after tht...MORE PRAISE N WORSHIP!!! WOOHOO
the songs were

1. Jump around - LUV IT !!!
2. Majesty

waa...dam crazy man when we singing Jump Around.....i jump till my legs gt cramp....but hu cares??!! i'm worshiping Jesus n nothing can stop me!!!!
den when got the pause...the keyboardist stand on the keyboard....den when
the pause was over....he jumped frm the keyboard at the same time the pause was over...
dam crazy man...after tht...ALMOST every1 jumped.....
den when they finished majesty...every1 cheer "we want more!! we want more!!"
n guess wht...we got our request!!!! they played "Free" again.....

den when concert over....i bought a Planetshakers t-shirt for rm20....wanted 2 buy
a Planetshakers dvd but one of it cost rm33.....pokai edi la....
den me n my jie go eat....called my dad....said coming is 35 mins time...so we go eat lor...
so 1st we buy twisties.....den we go back 2 the main santuary 2 see if we could
get autographs frm the Planetshakers band members.....but there was
a lot of people waiting...so we didn't wanted 2 wait....
so we when 2 the shop n bought 7-up n kickapoo....my jie pay 4 me....feel bad cse she had 2 pay...
so 2 repay her...i bought 'wan tan' mee 4 her.....but she couldn't finish it so
she ask me 2 share wit her...lol

walau...now my legs r cramp , tired n painful.....cse of all the jumping.....but i reali 1 2 thank the Planetshakers people.....4 they hav totally chg my life....

Here's some pictures

the ppl hu were lining up 2 go 2 the main hall

arggg...hate tis pic...but tis is the best pic among all.....
it's the crowd at the main hall....tis is only half of it...

Planetshakers t-shirt ( frm the front )

Planetshakers t-shirt ( frm the back )

Planetshakers logo....printed on the back

the Youthalpha logo...printed on the front

A hating day...

today i woke up at 11.15 a.m....consider dam late cse i've been waking up at 7 nowadays..y if u ask...cse my cousin chating wit lynn till 4.30 in the morning...i also cant sleep cse the monitor light is dam bright...lol....almost miss my bus sia....eat my lunch in jst 10 mins!!!
my 3 cousins look at me eat like crazy...lol....

in skool....zzz...edric reali pissed me off today man....1st...en.supra wanted p.a system la...
so izza n shahirah went 2 get it....so i went back 2 dewan la....den edric ask me AGAIN..
"IVAN!! WHERE'S THE P.A SYSTEM?? EN.SUPRA WANTS IT NOW!!!"
den i said "chill la...izza n shahirah r taking it..."
den he dam angry go ask me go take..zzzz....so i like wtv la...so i go take the p.a system....
den after tht....all the ppl in cf goin somewhere la....den my jie wanted me
follow her see where they goin....so we follow follow them 2 the gazebo la...den she go talk
wit them...leave me alone at the bilik guru there....
den she come back say they having prayer meeting....she ask me 2 join also la...
den i tell her "dowan la....after edric n nat scould....i dam lazy 2 layan them edi..."
so we went go ask edric's permission wether can go or not....
den when we ask...he go shout at us...yea...SHOUT at us...

den english gt survey n bla bla bla...lol
den maths tht time....i go ponteng class...wakakaka....ok la...not really ponteng la....
but go jaga 1 setia class....
tht time they were having moral class.....their class is really quite compared to the 1 setia n 1 usaha moral class last year...cse we our moral class last year gt xian loong n vishahan...lol
den we went back class...cse ustaz amir taking care of tht class....
den during maths time dam funny.....
cse pn.ding's english isn't reali tht fluent la....so whenever she says xero....it seems
like she's saying chiro...lol....
so she said "in year chiro chiro 2...our skool bla bla bla"
so eugene ask y does teacher say xero as chiro....den the whole class laugh like crazy...
some more non-stop u noe....but i really feel dam sad 4 pn.ding man...the whole class laughing
at her jst cse her english is not tht fluent...lol

den after recess...the long wait is over....CSE FINALLY THE INTERVIEW 4 THE FORM
1 PREFECTS IN TODAY!!!...cse all the form 2 prefects were asking edric n nat
when we r getting our juniors....
so i wanted 2 talk 2 the form 1 students hu were waiting 2 b interviewed la....
den the top 6 ask me get loss...zzzz....talk wit them also cannot....
those top 6 ppl dam *&%#* la.....nadia n liyana can talk wit them but i cannot la...dam nice....
wanted 2 slap all of them......

den during geo....pn.suriani ask me 2 go around the form 2 classes 2 ask hu wanted
2 join the fashion show nxt week....so i went around the form 2 classes la....
den when i went to 2 Bakti....( my jie jie's class )....mrs.tan inside la...
the whole class went "WOAA!!! HUI QING GUY IS HERE!!!!"
THE WHOLE CLASS U NOE!!!!.....i was really malu la.....
den mrs.tan ask me "eh ivan....u wanna see leyu izzit??"...den i was like
"maybe...maybe not..." den she go call her come...lol....den the whole class ask me
2 kiss her...LOL....FOR GODSAKE!!!! SHE'S JUST MY PET SISTER!!!!

zzz...today i was dam angry at all prefects....ESPECIALLY the top 6....donno y la...but i'm
dam angry at them....haiz....now 1a.m edi...my cousin wanna use the com...chowz

Alone in the world

haiz...today nvr go church again....already 3 or 4 weeks in a row nvr go...
i jst find no reason 2 live anymore....something told me yesterday when i was praying...
"y u keep on praying only...it's like ur talking 2 a blank wall or something...."
when i taught abt it....it is sort of true....sometimes when i pray 2 God....i dont even noe if God has answer my prayer or not...sometimes God has answer my prayers but i just dont noe when....
b4 tis....tht same question jst keeps coming 2 my head.....
but i just ignored it cse i had the passion 2 hear wht God has 2 say 2 me.....so i didnt care....
but one time in church.....i felt so left out....n i started not 2 go 2 church....n tht passion jst *poof* away...
now i'm tinking of all the things i can do when i'm not in church....
n even when i go 2 church...wht's the point??
all i go there is jst play drums 4 the children church...take care of the 'special children' class....
go 2 sing worship n praises.....go talk wit frens.....
n when i'm praising God....all my frens r like jst staring at the screen....doing nothing......
some of them lagi chunted.....go sms n some of them even talk on the phone....

n a voice inside me just keeps saying
"tink abt it la....if u dont go 2 church...u can wake up at 12 p.m instead of 7a.m...
but i just dont giv a dam abt it.....cse i noe tht voice is the voice of the devil....

i wish tht some1 would help me....tinking there's no reason 2 live is like living in a cage....
i wish tht i can noe wht's my purpose for living....y God has put me here on earth....
n i just wish tht i'll noe wht God is trying 2 say 2 me....cse wht inspires me 2 noe God more is my 2 brothers....n now tht they r gone....my inspiration 2 noe God more is gone....
i wish tht some1 would help me....my frens wouldn't listen 2 me....mayb some of them tink tht i'm posting tis 2 get attention.....but wht i am posting here it's true.....

i just don't noe wht 2 do now.....